Being Alone, Memes, and Cracked: SUCOD
 I FOUND
 WHAT I
 LOST
“And in sujood, I found what I lost” The other day, I experienced sujood in a way I never have before. It was like returning home after an extended period of time. It was like crying in your mother’s lap, only a thousand times more soothing. After waiting hours to be alone, I finally got home from work and rushed to make wudhu, planning fancy ways to convince Allah to accept my plans. But the thing is, it’s unbelievably easy to convince others that you’re okay. That you are too strong to break. That tears aren’t worth your time and that your patience will save the day yet again. But how could I convince the One that put this pain in my heart to begin with? The One who already knows the degree to which I am breaking on the inside. This smile, these empty words of reassurance, they can’t fool Him. Not even two seconds in, all I could say was, “I surrender to You. I admit it, Allah, I’m weak and I can’t do this on my own. I give up. Make me content with Your will because I have no control. I can’t change this, any of it. I know You know exactly what I’m going through and exactly how to solve it, but You’re not doing it for a reason. So please, help me understand, help me be content with Your plans for me.” I made sujood, thinking it would be just another conversation with Allah. Thinking I’d word my pain in a way that earns me a solution from Him. But as soon as I confessed to my helplessness, it felt as if all walls of my heart just broke and nothing could stop the tears from gushing. I didn’t know what to say anymore, all I knew is that I didn’t want to lift my head up. “If I lift my head up”, I thought, “the pain will return.“ And then I realized how vulnerable and in dire need of my Creator I really am. I don’t have the energy to resist any longer, I just want to accept His plan. I thought I’d convince Allah, but it seems as if He has convinced me instead. And if it took me a few days of hell in this life to realize it, I am more than grateful for my pain. Someday I’ll understand why this is happening to me. But if each time my heart is broken by this world, the cracks are filled with Your love, then I am at peace being in pieces. From unknown brother

“And in sujood, I found what I lost” The other day, I experienced sujood in a way I never have before. It was like returning home after an extended period of time. It was like crying in your mother’s lap, only a thousand times more soothing. After waiting hours to be alone, I finally got home from work and rushed to make wudhu, planning fancy ways to convince Allah to accept my plans. But the thing is, it’s unbelievably easy to convince others that you’re okay. That you are too strong to break. That tears aren’t worth your time and that your patience will save the day yet again. But how could I convince the One that put this pain in my heart to begin with? The One who already knows the degree to which I am breaking on the inside. This smile, these empty words of reassurance, they can’t fool Him. Not even two seconds in, all I could say was, “I surrender to You. I admit it, Allah, I’m weak and I can’t do this on my own. I give up. Make me content with Your will because I have no control. I can’t change this, any of it. I know You know exactly what I’m going through and exactly how to solve it, but You’re not doing it for a reason. So please, help me understand, help me be content with Your plans for me.” I made sujood, thinking it would be just another conversation with Allah. Thinking I’d word my pain in a way that earns me a solution from Him. But as soon as I confessed to my helplessness, it felt as if all walls of my heart just broke and nothing could stop the tears from gushing. I didn’t know what to say anymore, all I knew is that I didn’t want to lift my head up. “If I lift my head up”, I thought, “the pain will return.“ And then I realized how vulnerable and in dire need of my Creator I really am. I don’t have the energy to resist any longer, I just want to accept His plan. I thought I’d convince Allah, but it seems as if He has convinced me instead. And if it took me a few days of hell in this life to realize it, I am more than grateful for my pain. Someday I’ll understand why this is happening to me. But if each time my heart is broken by this world, the cracks are filled with Your love, then I am at peace being in pieces. From unknown brother

SUCOD I FOUND WHAT I LOST “And in sujood I found what I lost” The other day I experienced sujood in a way I never have before It was like returning home after an extended period of time It was like crying in your mother’s lap only a thousand times more soothing After waiting hours to be alone I finally got home from work and rushed to make wudhu planning fancy ways to convince Allah to accept my plans But the thing is it’s unbelievably easy to convince others that you’re okay That you are too strong to break That tears aren’t worth your time and that your patience will save the day yet again But how could I convince the One that put this pain in my heart to begin with? The One who already knows the degree to which I am breaking on the inside This smile these empty words of reassurance they can’t fool Him Not even two seconds in all I could say was “I surrender to You I admit it Allah I’m weak and I can’t do this on my own I give up Make me content with Your will because I have no control I can’t change this any of it I know You know exactly what I’m going through and exactly how to solve it but You’re not doing it for a reason So please help me understand help me be content with Your plans for me” I made sujood thinking it would be just another conversation with Allah Thinking I’d word my pain in a way that earns me a solution from Him But as soon as I confessed to my helplessness it felt as if all walls of my heart just broke and nothing could stop the tears from gushing I didn’t know what to say anymore all I knew is that I didn’t want to lift my head up “If I lift my head up” I thought “the pain will return“ And then I realized how vulnerable and in dire need of my Creator I really am I don’t have the energy to resist any longer I just want to accept His plan I thought I’d convince Allah but it seems as if He has convinced me instead And if it took me a few days of hell in this life to realize it I am more than grateful for my pain Someday I’ll understand why this is happening to me But if each time my heart is broken by this world the cracks are filled with Your love then I am at peace being in pieces From unknown brother Meme

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