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Head, Target, and Tumblr: Cleveland Clinic ICE VS. HEAT WHAT'S BETTER FOR YOUR PAIN? Ice and heat are easy, natural, affordable ways to relieve pain. Ever wonder which one is better for your particular problem? Here is what our experts recommend PROBLEM SOLUTION Worn-away cartlage inARTHRITIS joints (knee, shoulder, elbow, fingers, etc.) Moist heat eases chronically stiff joints, relaxes tight muscles Chronic, inflammatory arthritis (big toe, instep, ankle, heel, knee, wrist, FLARE-UPSbs pain Ice calms flare-ups, GOUT finger, elbow, etc.) Pain from nerves or blood vessels in the head or from muscles in the neck HEADACHEIce numbs throbbing head pain Moist heat relaxes painful neck spasm Pulled muscles or injured tendons in the thigh, back, calf, etc. STRAINSIce eases inflammation (redness,sweling and or tenderness), numbs pain Heat eases stiffness after inflammation resolves Stretching or tearing of ligaments in joints like the knee, ankle, foot, elbow, etc. SPRAINS Ice eases inflammation numbs pain Heat relieves stiffness after inflammation resolves Acute irrtation afterTENDINITISce eases inflammation activity in tendons attached to joints like the shoulder, elbow, knee, wrist, heel, etc. numbs pain ronic iitation and TENDINOSIS stiffness in tendons Heat relieves stiffness after inflammation resolves attached to joints WHY ICE FOR INJURIES WHY HEAT FOR ARTHRITIS & INJURIES6 WEEKS OLD? 6 WEEKS OLD? Ice constricts blood vessels which numbs pain, relieves inflammation and limits bruising Heat increases blood flow which relaxes tight muscles and relieves aching joints. CAUTION Do not use heat for acute injuries. It increases inflammation and can delay healing. Sources: niams.nih.gov/Health-Info/Bursitis/#6 headaches.org/education/Headache_Topic_Sheets/Hot_and_Cold_Packs/Showers 2014 Cleveland Clinic Learn more at: clevelandclinic.org/HealthHub singingstranger: cranquis: mydrunkkitchen: americaninfographic: Ice or Heat? THIS IS SO INFORMATIVE! I get asked this question at least twice a week. So here ya go. This is really great, especially for a klutz like me!

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Being Alone, Children, and Dating: Logan Trent @TheLoganTrent Follow Millennials are killing the golf industry Business Insider Millennials are obsessed with the style of life'- and it's killing retailers Millennials are killing the movie business I New York Post Millennials are Killing the Golf Industry - the BLITZ agency blog Will The Millennial Generation Kill Home Depot? - Forbes Millennials are killing relationships and we should be concerned Take Two | Are millennials killing the running trend? Maybe. | 89.3 KPCC Are Millennials Killing Wine? An exposé. | Quench Magazine "Promiscuous" Millennials Are Killing McDonald's: Gothamist How Millennials Lack Of Manners Is Killing Class Unwritten Millennials Are Killing Off Paper Napkins | Mclntyre in the Morning Are Millennials Killing The Car Industry? | DrivingSales News Here's HoW Millennials Have Killed Crowfunding | Bossip Are Millennials Killing Credit? Top Rated High Risk Merchant RETWEETS LIKES 130 102 2:14 PM 23 Aug 2016 130102 cornerof5thandvermouth: haiku-robot: tardis-in-a-moonbeam: zooophagous: ralfmaximus: princeloki: f1rstperson: Glad to see my lifelong disinterest in golf is paying off let me tell you about golf i grew up in a little desert valley called Tucson, Arizona, where it only rains 2 inches a year on average. the majority of the city’s water is pumped from an underground aquifer, which took millions of years to fill. one of the biggest conservation efforts in our city was for water, naturally, and i spent a lot of time learning about low flow toilets and 5 minute showers. i learned that filling your sink basin and washing your dishes in that water is less costly than running the tap. i learned that it only takes 2 days without water on the desert for someone to die the city was sinking as the aquifer drained. neighborhoods fell into flood zones that didnt exist 10 years ago there’s a road called Golf Links in the city and it is lined with golf courses. miles of green grass where grass doesn’t grow, in a valley where it doesn’t rain. why? because the rich white retirees who moved there to stop the aching in their joints decided they should also get to play golf. meanwhile our public schools taught small children like me that taking long showers would kill the world let the golf industry burn There are 15,500+ golf courses in the United States alone.  Each one consumes ~312,000 gallons of water per day. That consumption is equivalent to 55+ million humans per day in the United States… roughly 1/6 the entire population. We simply cannot sustain this frivolity, especially for something 99% of us will never use. Destroy golf courses and plant wild grasses and butterfly bushes in their place. Mmm wild blackberries would be great They used to be all around before recent land development here they used to be all around before recent land development here ^Haiku^bot^9. I detect haikus with 5-7-5 format. Sometimes I make mistakes.Help me buy a flower for Alexa®! And yes, we are dating. | PayPal | Patreon Out where I am we’ve been turning defunct golf courses into public parks and nature trails after letting them overgrow a bit. It’s nice! You get a lot of interesting successional species as the land is reclaimed, and it’s great birdwatching territory.

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9/11, Apparently, and Arguing: 0 IN MID-2004, WITH THE GLOBAL DOMINATION THAT WAS TO COME JUST A MURMUR ON THE HORIZON, WE FOLLOWED MCR AROUND THE UK FOR ONE OF THEIR VERY FIRST METAL HAMMER FEATURES WORDS: JOHN DORAN PHOTOS: JOHN McMURTRIE mcrscans.tumblr.com G- prepared for the accident that was to happen tonight at premier sauna-cum-venue, The Garage. During erard Way had been having premonitions that he was going to be blinded for months. The lead an eviscerating performance, Gerard throws himself singer of My Chemical Romancetoward the crowd just as one particularly lust-crazed kept on seeing it happen in dreams and each time he would young woman thrusts her arms up to touch him. Gerard, now wearing onyx-black shades, takes up the story: "I head-banged into her finger and it went right in my eye. It was the weirdest feeling. It was painful but the worst thing was how weird it was. I could feel her finger in my eye and all this really warm fluid running down my face. I thought my eyeball had burst and I just kept on thinking about the dreams I'd been having about wake up in a cold sweat, shaking. So he was almost going blind. I was like, 'Dude, I've lost this left eye: But the finger was right back into my socket around the eyeball where all the tendons and shit are. It made LEAP OF FAITH: THE MCRMY PILE IN ANK GENUFLECTS AT HE ALTAR OF SCREAM 38 METLHAMNERCOUK THE BROTHERS WAY: DIVVENT MESS garage RISTOR music "DOESTHE NUMBER 30 GO FROM HERE MATE?" a really weird slurping noise when she took it out.the outfit) from Newark, NJ, who, despite only having Metal Hammer has very strict rules about what girls acouple of single releases in this country, are starting can and cannot stick into its various orifices and this should definitely be a no-no. Gerard and the rest of themuch for their own safety, then they do about their fans. band are sitting around sharing coffee, beers and soft They walk out on stage to hand out bottles of water to drinks, waiting for their Manchester Hop And Grape show the people at the front and regularly douse the ones who soundcheck this evening and telling us all about how they look like they need it. They also try to protect their fans are beginning to take off in this country-while swapping from the carnage on stage if they get up there. It's Metal gig injury stories. Gerard reckons it would have been cool Hammers view that moshing is a good thing because it in a way to have lost his eye, saying: "Can you imagine gives people the chance to have catharsis and get the how cool it would be to wear an eyepatch on stage?" to cause a huge stir over here. And if they don't care violence out that is in us all without hurting anyone else You'd be the screamo Bluebeard!", adds taciturr drummer Matt Pelissier. All of the band have horror stories in this country under the age of 40 was made to go to one to tell when it comes to playing live and, watching thepunk or screamo gig a week then football violence would powerhouse performance that they put on, you can't help probably die out overnight. But Gerard still thinks there's but feel they should take out a hell of a lot more personal anegative element to it sometimes, saying: "Some of it injury insurance. "Frank [Iero] hit me in the face with the is macho bullshit. Some of the nu metal acts were just head of his guitar one night and it was bleeding so much encouraging violence for violence's sake. It gives punk that my entire face was covered in blood," says Ray Toro, rck a bad name and it makes it harder for the kids. Their the Afro-haired guitarist. "It was like a mask of blood." parents aren't going to let them go and watch bands if (usually). In fact, we'd go so far as to say that if everyone "We're a really physical band on stage," adds Gerard.they go and get the shit kicked out of them." "I slipped a couple of discs in my back on tour. Frank hasThe Garage is heaving hours before the gig even starts broken his wrist. We've all been hurt." It was the gig the night before when we first met up with the five-piece (Gerard's brother Mikey plays bass in and people keep on coming up to Gerard in the pub beforehand. He's nearly mobbed at one point by two girls coming out of McDonald's. "Oh! My! God!" says "We've all been hurt GERARD ON SOME OF THE NOT-SO-MUCH-PERKS OF THE JOB mcrscans.tumblr.com METALHAMMERCOUK 39 VEHICLES AND CONTENTS ARE LEFT ENTIRELY AT OWNERS RISK MCR'S WARM-UP YOGA one with hermouth full of Curly Wurly McFlurry "My! Chemical! Romance! for a quick pint. Now Gerard's got over the fear of nearly becoming a rocknrolcyclops, he can explain the genesis. And you can see why they're starting to attract this of their strange name. "The name is taken from an Irvine kind of attention when the gig kicks off. Within seconds Welsh book. Me and Mikey were looking at a copy of Ecstasy, of the first song, Gerard is in the crowd, screaming and thrashing like a younger, better-looking Casey Chaos. Their music is reminiscent of other emo/post-hardcoreChemical Romance mean so much on so many different bands such as Funeral For A Friend and Hundred Reasons, levels. It seemed to be the only way to describe the music. but they have a scruffier, punkier edge, which comes fromAnd in another way, Trainspotting is generally set in this the fact that they're all massive fans of Black Flag. and on the inside it said, Three tales of chemical romance." The de facto leader of the group adds: "Well, the words area with people getting caught up in a scene and a vibe The band, it has to be said, as nice as they are, don't appear to be very rock'n'roll. Hammer groans inwardly when it gets on the tour bus, as the two DVDs that are out on show are Dungeons & Dragons, the cartoon, and a stop-motion animation of Wind In The Willows. Nearly all the band go straight to bed, leaving Hammer Matt, who looks like he would sooner be pulling his own up with just Matt and the drummers from Hondo Macleanteeth out with pliers than being interviewed, perks up and The Bled, drinking Stella, listening to Refused and slightly and says, "Newark is in the State of New Jersey, talking about hi-hats. C-c-c-call the cops! where there's a lot of drugs about and that resonated with us because of all the stuff we had to fight through to become a band. The strange thing is that when you watch the movie with the drug addiction and murder, it evern looks like Newark, where we come from!" a few hours outside of New York. It's a complete goddamn The next day, when Hammer has unstuck its tonguewasteland. It's been shut down for about 20 years. It from the floor and tried to rub its aching pancreas better, we look for the band, but apparently they all got up What does it smell of?" we ask. to go sightseeing around Manchester at 5.30 this morning. "Dead bodies", he replies nonchalantly. 5.30am? That was only half an hour after Hammer went to bed! Later, after a lot of fannying about with gaffa tape says, "and during that period I was using substances and hairspray, the band finally say theyre ready to go out to overcome other substances. smells godawful." "Also, at the time I was drinking severely," Gerard "I could feel her finger in my eye... I thought my eyeball had burst" NO, ITS NOT A WEIRD GROUPIE STORY mcrscans.tumblr.com 40 METRIHAMMERCOUK "Id had a really bad year before the band and that helped me get out of it. My art career had gone down the like he could have stepped straight out of Flock Of shitter, 9/11 had just happened. I was quite close to that Seagulls, Gerard is a goth-rock marauder with raven- at the time and it affected me in a very bad way. I became black hair, torn black clothing and aviator shades, and like a hermit and just started drinking all the time and Matt, with his backwards cap and goatee beard, looks I didn't want to do anything with my life. And drinking like he's ready to walk on stage filling in for Metallica. and not doing anything else is the worst thing you can Frank is the most 'modern-looking guy in the band do in terms of depression. I had to go and see a therapist with his punctured face, gun and heart tattoos, and for the first time ever and she put me on antidepressants. asymmetrical haircut. Suddenly all their disparate looks But it wasn'tthe counselling or the drugs, it was the band gel and they look like a band should: a band of brothers. that got me out of my depression. I had a purpose again." "In this life you gotta do what you gotta do!" yells with his MC5/Mars Volta 'fro, the rake-thin Mikey looks All of the band have had similar experiences. "I think Gerard before pausing and adding, "And if that means you'll find none of us was the cool kid at school," offers doing a line of coke and getting a blow job, then that's Frank. "I felt like I never fitted in when I was younger and what you gotta do!" I think depression is a normal thing that happens in thatHammer ain't gonna argue, and by the end of the show situation. So a lot of those emotions go into our songs. there have been more members of the audience running We keep it in check now. Sometimes I go a little bit off the across the stage and diving off than those who haven't. rails but we keep each other in check. There's always beer After dragging Frank off for a quick curry in nearby around when you're on tour. You're more likely to get beer Rusholme, just to prove that all English food isn't shit, tickets than meal tickets." we rejoin the others in Manchester's premier rock bar, The reason that bands drink so much on tour is because Big Hands, where a dizzying array of beers are drunk of all of the downtime there is to kil. Matt, who doesnt by the band, and by the swelling ranks of girls who want drink that often, says: You'll get kids who are desperate to drink with them. to come backstage and when they run into the dressingWe leave them at about 3am, cavorting on the streets of room there will be, like, one guy asleep, two having a chat, Manchester, singing note-perfect impressions of English one watching the TV and another smoking a cigarettebands while dreaming about world domination. they always look so depressed, like they've walked into the wrong room. Why? You feel like saying, Look, you'd be having a better time if you were out at the bar." Frank agrees: The hour you're on stage and meeting the kids afterwards is what it's all about. It is the 22.5 GERARD WOULD NEVER LET ANYONE INTO HIS SACRED CRYPT hours of the day which is boring when you're on tour." But if last night's gig was incendiary, tonight's is certifiably cooler. Ray looks like a 1960s urban guerrilla If 'DUDE, WHERE'S MY EYE?" mcrscans.tumblr.com METALHAMM ERCOUK 41 mcrscans: My Chemical Romance (UK tour special, 2004) article for Metal Hammer Special, 2013 by John Doran, photography by John McMurtrie.
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Cheating, Doctor, and Friends: You Shared Your Life With Me On Social Media, How Dare You Skip Details @balleralert You Shared Your Life With Me On Social Media, How Dare You Skip Details -blogged by @peachkyss ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Social Media seems like the go to place to vent your personal issues or share some of your favorite moments in your life. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ People share the moment they found out they were pregnant, doctor appointments, and gender reveals. Then once the baby is born, you show your followers or friends a picture of a foot. What the hell? That’s our baby now, show us the baby’s face. How dare you skip the important details? ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Some people go as far as posting that their man or woman was cheating, they caught them with someone else, or sharing details about how wack the penis was. Then as soon as someone asks them a question about the situation, they want to get in their feelings and tell to you to mind your business. Why should we mind our business when you have shared every detail with us? Like, it’s our business now not just yours. We need closure too. He broke your heart. Hell, our heart is aching as well. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ If you don’t want people in your business, then stop posting your business for the world to see. We will ask questions since you like to share every aspect of your life. Either answer the questions or don’t post your personal business. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Simple right?
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Beyonce, Condom, and Dancing: It is illegal to smonk on these premises leg <p><a href="http://asylunatic.tumblr.com/post/166261599291/someone-asked-me-what-i-thought-about-surreal" class="tumblr_blog">asylunatic</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>Someone asked me what I thought about surreal memes and I really liked the question so I basically wrote a whole essay to answer that question. It seemed relevant to this blog so I thought I might share it here, too:</p> <p><i>Once upon a time I went to see an art show by Jordan Wolfson. Besides some insanity dancing sculptures, there was a video. It consisted of scenes with a poorly cgi’d condom that was leaking hearts whilst dancing through some rando’s childhood home (or so I interpreted that house). Other scenes included the artist dressed as a punk walking around some 2017 metropole city, like a total anachronism. The whole ordeal was accompanied by Beyonce music and displayed in a room covered in fake fur (ceiling included).</i></p> <p><i>It stuck with me because I interpreted it as a post-modern-post-internet kinda art piece, that just was full of the empty imagery that is encountered now everywhere all the time. Meme culture is just a part of that. </i></p> <p><i>There’s so many images splashed over you that all of them have lost a certain core impact. Repeated exposure numbs. And it is so available over the internet. So many pictures of someones darling dearest baby. So much hardcore anal porn. So many photographs by talented photographers. So much joy and darkness and beauty so readily available. </i></p> <p><i>And that video made me think about all of this. Because what did that outdated house mean to me? Or the condom dancing with hearts? I did not bother about someone else’s house or the anachronist punk. But I was aching because surely it must be meaningful to <b>someone</b>.</i></p> <p><i>When I came home from the show I spoke to my mom. She had seen it too and it turned out that she was way more informed about it. She told me it was actually a piece about something with aids and some social motivation ladidadida. Totally not what I had experienced it to be.</i></p> <p><i>And so my point is, I guess, that memes can do this too. They create their own world where they get used again and again and again and the repetition makes them something new, with no ties to original content and intent. Images that create their own worlds and meanings and repetitions. (in conceptual art these are called simulacra)</i></p> <p><i>I didn’t know surreal memes by name until you asked me, so I googled them guess what. I love them. They are so very much meme to the core: just imagery with no origin, just a canvas for my interpretation. </i></p> </blockquote>
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Being Alone, Bones, and Complex: Ask Meme growling suggestion edition <p><a href="http://spctlessminds.tumblr.com/post/155987241443/based-on-this-suggestions-blog-warning-these" class="tumblr_blog">spctlessminds</a>:</p><blockquote> <blockquote><p><small>based on <a href="http://growling-suggestion.tumblr.com/">this</a> suggestions blog.  <b>warning: </b> these are pretty dark/angry  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  could be triggering to some people.  please be cautious before proceeding<b><i>!!</i></b></small></p></blockquote> <p><small>‘  all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  me to not flinch away without meaning to.  when will this stop affecting me<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  all i want is to be soft  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  gentle,  but i’m made out of steel  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  anger.  maybe in another life,  i guess.  ’<br/>‘  beauty is in the eye of the beholder,  so choose to see beauty in everything.  ’<br/>‘  burning it all to the ground  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  force them to start again.  they made you lose everything.  now return the favor.  ’<br/>‘  do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  do you trust me enough<b><i>?</i></b>  do you trust me at all<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  don’t you dare abandon me.  ’<br/>‘  even after all you have done,  i will always want you fighting on my side.  ’<br/>‘  every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again.  ’<br/>‘  everyone i have ever loved is long gone.  i sing to the sky alone.  ’<br/>‘  everyone i touch gets hurt,  but i can’t stop.  i touch  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i touch  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i touch  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  people get hurt.  why can’t i ever stop<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  everyone says i used to be a hero,  but i can still taste the blood in my mouth  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  still feel bruises blooming because of my fists  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my eyes are still stretched wide  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  terrified.  ’<br/>‘  everything i love has been taken from me.  what do i have left to fight for<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong.  ’<br/>‘  friends are more important than any material object will ever be.  ’<br/>‘  i am aching to hold you  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  keep you safe,  to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you.  ’<br/>‘  i am divine  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  you will bow before me.  ’<br/>‘  i am fucking divine.  ’<br/>‘  i am in control  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i listen to no one.  ’<br/>‘  i am not a good person.  don’t pretend i am.  ’<br/>‘  i am not accustomed to love.  this is a learning experience.  ’<br/>‘  i am not worth saving  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i am not worth redemption.  let me stay in the dark.  ’<br/>‘  i am so tired all the time,  all i want to do is rest.  ’<br/>‘  i am too tired to deal with any of this.  ’<br/>‘  i bow to no man.  ’<br/>‘  i broke into sharp pieces when i broke  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together.  i’m sorry.  ’<br/>‘  i can give you your wings back  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i can show you to fly once more,  if you only believe in me.  ’<br/>‘  i cannot be saved.  ’<br/>‘  i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people.  i can bear this weight on my own.  i have to.  ’<br/>‘  i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you,  but i loved you too much to notice.  ’<br/>‘  i crave affection in the simplest way.  ’<br/>‘  i deserve to hurt.  i deserve to bleed.  ’<br/>‘  i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer,  as long as it leaves your lips.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t fight for you anymore.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t want to let go of you.  not now,  not ever.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t want to talk about it.  i don’t want to remember.  i don’t want to heal.  all i want is for it to go away.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t want you to touch me.  please don’t touch me,  just go away.  ’<br/>‘  i feel anger deeper than my bones.  i feel anger in my very soul.  ’<br/>‘  i feel nothing at all,  except for when i feel everything all at once.  ’<br/>‘  i have fallen  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  though i may miss the sky,  i belong here now.  ’<br/>‘  i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine.  ’<br/>‘  i have no home anymore.  ’<br/>‘  i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  then i remember nothing.  ’<br/>‘  i see beauty in everything,  but especially in you.  ’<br/>‘  i should never have fallen in love with you.  ’<br/>‘  i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me.  now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away.  ’<br/>‘  i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe.  ’<br/>‘  i will never amount to anything.  i am a failure in the worst type of way.  ’<br/>‘  i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  maybe someday it will be true.  ’<br/>‘  if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore.  ’<br/>‘  if you ask me to,  i will set the whole world on fire,  my dear.  it’s all for you.  ’<br/>‘  is it my fault<b><i>?</i></b>  it’s my fault.  it’s always my fault.  ’<br/>‘  it’s not murder if they deserved it,  right<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me,  choking on anger  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  suffocating on sadness.  ’<br/>‘  i’m in love with everything that hurts me.  ’<br/>‘  i’m okay.  i’m alright.  this is all in my mind.  ’<br/>‘  i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me.  ’<br/>‘  i’m so cold  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i can’t stop shaking.  i am not who you think i am.  ’<br/>‘  i’m so tired all the time  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i just want to be awake again.  ’<br/>‘  i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten.  i just want someone to remember me.  ’<br/>‘  i’m tired of fighting everything in my life.  just make it stop.  ’<br/>‘  i’m too tired to care.  blow up,  get angry at me.  i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it.  ’<br/>‘  jealousy burns within me.  ’<br/>‘  just let me go in peace for once in my damn life.  ’<br/>‘  loneliness is a disease  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  it leaves me empty  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  hollow,  like sound goes through my body  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  bounces back.  ’<br/>‘  made of starlight  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  sunshine,  i shine brighter than they all know.  ’<br/>‘  my anger is righteous  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my actions are pure.  ’<br/>‘  my chest aches  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my lungs burn.  this sickness comes from the inside.  ’<br/>‘  my chest hurts  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  all i need is some comfort  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  understanding.  ’<br/>‘  my chest hurts  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i ache to go back to the sky.  ’<br/>‘  my shoulders are aching where wings used to be  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  all i want is for them to stop hurting.  ’<br/>‘  pull me apart  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  piece me together in your own way.  make me perfect.  ’<br/>‘  righteous fury throws through my veins  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  if you touch the people i love i will destroy you.  ’<br/>‘  rise up.  you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more.  ’<br/>‘  say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue.  ’<br/>‘  so much blood has been spilled in my name.  time to make you believe it was in yours.  ’<br/>‘  so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent,  but not when i scream  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  plead for help<b><i>?</i></b>  fuck off.  ’<br/>‘  sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want.  ’<br/>‘  stay away from my fucking friends.  stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you.  ’<br/>‘  stop treating me like i’m an idiot.  you aren’t better than me in any way  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  you better remember that.  ’<br/>‘  the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue.  ’<br/>‘  the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it.  ’<br/>‘  to love them is my divine right.  ’<br/>‘  voices whisper from the shadows  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  they fill my mind with thoughts of you.  ’<br/>‘  what did i to wrong to be so unloved<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  who the fuck do you think you are<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  why can’t i ever fucking stop crying<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  with a new year comes new tests  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  triumphs.  let’s try to make the most out of it.  ’<br/>‘  would it really kill you to be honest for once<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  yes,  i remember my wings breaking  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  being destroyed.  i was powerless to stop it.  ’<br/>‘  you are not required to love your parents,  or to even like them.  ’<br/>‘  you can’t hate me more than i hate myself,  but you are more than welcome to try.  ’<br/>‘  you may say you love me,  but you love only a part of me.  i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being.  ’<br/>‘  you never fucking cared about me.  don’t fucking lie about it.  not to me.  ’<br/>‘  you remind me of mint.  fresh,  sharp,  kind of cold,  but in a nice way.  i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite.  ’<br/>‘  you shine light in even the darkest parts of me.  you are my sun.  ’<br/>‘  you should fear me,  but you don’t.  i will be eternally puzzled,  yet grateful.  ’<br/>‘  you touch me  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my skin burns  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  it burns for you,  always you.  ’</small></p> </blockquote>
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