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Angry Birds, Bad, and Bored: How to Study Likea Harvard Student Taken from Sophia Chua-Rubenfeld, daughter of the Tiger Mother 1. Choose classes that interest you. That way studying doesn't feel like slave labor. If you don't want to learn, then I can't 2. Make some friends. See steps 12, 13, General Principles 3. Study less, but study better 4. Avoid Autopilot Brain at all costs. 5. Vague is bad. Vague is a waste of your time 6. Write it down. 7 Suck it up, buckle down, get it done. Plan of Attack Phase I: Class 8. Show up. Everything will make a lot more sense that way, and you will save yourself a lot of time in the long run. 9. Take notes by hand. I don't know the science behind it, but doing anything by hand is a way of carving it into your memory. Also, if you get bored you will doodle, which is still a thousand times better than ending up on stumbleupon or something. Phase II: Study Time 10. Get out of the library. The sheer fact of being in a library doesn't fill you with knowledge. Eight hours of Facebooking in the library is still eight hours of Facebooking. Also, people who bring food and blankets to the library and just stay there during finals week start to smell weird. Go home and bathe. You can quiz yourself while you wash your hair 11. Do a little every day, but don't let it be your whole day. "This afternoon, I will 0 a problem set. Then, I will watch an episode of South Park and go to the gym" ALWAYS BEATS "Starting right now, I am going to read as much as I possibly can...oh wow, now it's midnight, I'm on page five, and my room reeks of ramen 12. Give yourself incentive. There's function worse abyss study time. If you know you're going out in six hours, you're more likely to get something done. 13. Allow friends to confiscate your phone when they catch you playing Angry Birds. Oh and if you think you need a break, you probably don't. Phase 14. Stop highlighting. Underlining is supposed to keep you focused, but it's actually a one-way ticket to Autopilot Brain. You zone out, look down, and suddenly you have five pages of neon green that you don't remember reading Write notes in the margins instead. 15. Do all your own work. You get nothing out of copying a problem set. It's also shady. 16. Read as much as you can. No way around it. Stop trying to cheat with Sparknotes. 17. Be a smart reader, not a robot (lol) Ask yourself: What is the author trying to prove? What is the logical progression of the argument? You can reading the introduction and conclusion of every chapter. Then, pick any two examples/anecdotes and commit them to memory (write them down). They will help you reconstruct the author's argument later on. 18. Don't read everything, but understand everything that you read Better to have a deep understanding of a limited amount of material, than to have a vague understanding of an entire course. Once again: Vague is bad. Vague is a waste of your time 19. Bullet points. For essays, Phase IV: Reading Period (Review Week) 20. Once again: do not move into the library. Eat, sleep, and bathe 21. If you don't understand it, it will definitely be on the exam. Solution tex 22. Do all the practice problems. This one is totally tiger mom are of rote learning. Newsflash: even at great intellectual bastions like Harvard, you will be names and dates. To memorize effectively: stop reading your list over and over again. It doesn't work. Say it out loud, write it down. Remember how you made friends? Have them quiz you, then return the favor 24. Again with the friends: ask them to listen while you explain a difficult concept to them. This forces you to articulate your understanding. Remember, vague is bad. 25. Go for the big picture. Try to figure out where a specific concept fits into the course as a whole. This will help you tap into Big Themes- every class has Big Themes - which will streamline what you need to know. You can learn a million facts, but until you understand how they fit together, you're missing the point. V: Exam Day 26. Crush exam. Get A. e prep-ademic Back To School
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Angry Birds, Bad, and Bored: How to Study Likea Harvard Student Taken from Sophia Chua-Rubenfeld, daughter of the Tiger Mother 1. Choose classes that interest you. That way studying doesn't feel like slave labor. If you don't want to learn, then I can't 2. Make some friends. See steps 12, 13, General Principles 3. Study less, but study better 4. Avoid Autopilot Brain at all costs. 5. Vague is bad. Vague is a waste of your time 6. Write it down. 7 Suck it up, buckle down, get it done. Plan of Attack Phase I: Class 8. Show up. Everything will make a lot more sense that way, and you will save yourself a lot of time in the long run. 9. Take notes by hand. I don't know the science behind it, but doing anything by hand is a way of carving it into your memory. Also, if you get bored you will doodle, which is still a thousand times better than ending up on stumbleupon or something. Phase II: Study Time 10. Get out of the library. The sheer fact of being in a library doesn't fill you with knowledge. Eight hours of Facebooking in the library is still eight hours of Facebooking. Also, people who bring food and blankets to the library and just stay there during finals week start to smell weird. Go home and bathe. You can quiz yourself while you wash your hair 11. Do a little every day, but don't let it be your whole day. "This afternoon, I will 0 a problem set. Then, I will watch an episode of South Park and go to the gym" ALWAYS BEATS "Starting right now, I am going to read as much as I possibly can...oh wow, now it's midnight, I'm on page five, and my room reeks of ramen 12. Give yourself incentive. There's function worse abyss study time. If you know you're going out in six hours, you're more likely to get something done. 13. Allow friends to confiscate your phone when they catch you playing Angry Birds. Oh and if you think you need a break, you probably don't. Phase 14. Stop highlighting. Underlining is supposed to keep you focused, but it's actually a one-way ticket to Autopilot Brain. You zone out, look down, and suddenly you have five pages of neon green that you don't remember reading Write notes in the margins instead. 15. Do all your own work. You get nothing out of copying a problem set. It's also shady. 16. Read as much as you can. No way around it. Stop trying to cheat with Sparknotes. 17. Be a smart reader, not a robot (lol) Ask yourself: What is the author trying to prove? What is the logical progression of the argument? You can reading the introduction and conclusion of every chapter. Then, pick any two examples/anecdotes and commit them to memory (write them down). They will help you reconstruct the author's argument later on. 18. Don't read everything, but understand everything that you read Better to have a deep understanding of a limited amount of material, than to have a vague understanding of an entire course. Once again: Vague is bad. Vague is a waste of your time 19. Bullet points. For essays, Phase IV: Reading Period (Review Week) 20. Once again: do not move into the library. Eat, sleep, and bathe 21. If you don't understand it, it will definitely be on the exam. Solution tex 22. Do all the practice problems. This one is totally tiger mom are of rote learning. Newsflash: even at great intellectual bastions like Harvard, you will be names and dates. To memorize effectively: stop reading your list over and over again. It doesn't work. Say it out loud, write it down. Remember how you made friends? Have them quiz you, then return the favor 24. Again with the friends: ask them to listen while you explain a difficult concept to them. This forces you to articulate your understanding. Remember, vague is bad. 25. Go for the big picture. Try to figure out where a specific concept fits into the course as a whole. This will help you tap into Big Themes- every class has Big Themes - which will streamline what you need to know. You can learn a million facts, but until you understand how they fit together, you're missing the point. V: Exam Day 26. Crush exam. Get A. e prep-ademic How to study better (long)
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Being Alone, Bones, and Complex: Ask Meme growling suggestion edition <p><a href="http://spctlessminds.tumblr.com/post/155987241443/based-on-this-suggestions-blog-warning-these" class="tumblr_blog">spctlessminds</a>:</p><blockquote> <blockquote><p><small>based on <a href="http://growling-suggestion.tumblr.com/">this</a> suggestions blog.  <b>warning: </b> these are pretty dark/angry  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  could be triggering to some people.  please be cautious before proceeding<b><i>!!</i></b></small></p></blockquote> <p><small>‘  all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  me to not flinch away without meaning to.  when will this stop affecting me<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  all i want is to be soft  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  gentle,  but i’m made out of steel  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  anger.  maybe in another life,  i guess.  ’<br/>‘  beauty is in the eye of the beholder,  so choose to see beauty in everything.  ’<br/>‘  burning it all to the ground  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  force them to start again.  they made you lose everything.  now return the favor.  ’<br/>‘  do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  do you trust me enough<b><i>?</i></b>  do you trust me at all<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  don’t you dare abandon me.  ’<br/>‘  even after all you have done,  i will always want you fighting on my side.  ’<br/>‘  every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again.  ’<br/>‘  everyone i have ever loved is long gone.  i sing to the sky alone.  ’<br/>‘  everyone i touch gets hurt,  but i can’t stop.  i touch  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i touch  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i touch  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  people get hurt.  why can’t i ever stop<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  everyone says i used to be a hero,  but i can still taste the blood in my mouth  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  still feel bruises blooming because of my fists  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my eyes are still stretched wide  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  terrified.  ’<br/>‘  everything i love has been taken from me.  what do i have left to fight for<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong.  ’<br/>‘  friends are more important than any material object will ever be.  ’<br/>‘  i am aching to hold you  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  keep you safe,  to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you.  ’<br/>‘  i am divine  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  you will bow before me.  ’<br/>‘  i am fucking divine.  ’<br/>‘  i am in control  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i listen to no one.  ’<br/>‘  i am not a good person.  don’t pretend i am.  ’<br/>‘  i am not accustomed to love.  this is a learning experience.  ’<br/>‘  i am not worth saving  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i am not worth redemption.  let me stay in the dark.  ’<br/>‘  i am so tired all the time,  all i want to do is rest.  ’<br/>‘  i am too tired to deal with any of this.  ’<br/>‘  i bow to no man.  ’<br/>‘  i broke into sharp pieces when i broke  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together.  i’m sorry.  ’<br/>‘  i can give you your wings back  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i can show you to fly once more,  if you only believe in me.  ’<br/>‘  i cannot be saved.  ’<br/>‘  i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people.  i can bear this weight on my own.  i have to.  ’<br/>‘  i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you,  but i loved you too much to notice.  ’<br/>‘  i crave affection in the simplest way.  ’<br/>‘  i deserve to hurt.  i deserve to bleed.  ’<br/>‘  i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer,  as long as it leaves your lips.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t fight for you anymore.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t want to let go of you.  not now,  not ever.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t want to talk about it.  i don’t want to remember.  i don’t want to heal.  all i want is for it to go away.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t want you to touch me.  please don’t touch me,  just go away.  ’<br/>‘  i feel anger deeper than my bones.  i feel anger in my very soul.  ’<br/>‘  i feel nothing at all,  except for when i feel everything all at once.  ’<br/>‘  i have fallen  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  though i may miss the sky,  i belong here now.  ’<br/>‘  i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine.  ’<br/>‘  i have no home anymore.  ’<br/>‘  i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  then i remember nothing.  ’<br/>‘  i see beauty in everything,  but especially in you.  ’<br/>‘  i should never have fallen in love with you.  ’<br/>‘  i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me.  now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away.  ’<br/>‘  i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe.  ’<br/>‘  i will never amount to anything.  i am a failure in the worst type of way.  ’<br/>‘  i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  maybe someday it will be true.  ’<br/>‘  if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore.  ’<br/>‘  if you ask me to,  i will set the whole world on fire,  my dear.  it’s all for you.  ’<br/>‘  is it my fault<b><i>?</i></b>  it’s my fault.  it’s always my fault.  ’<br/>‘  it’s not murder if they deserved it,  right<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me,  choking on anger  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  suffocating on sadness.  ’<br/>‘  i’m in love with everything that hurts me.  ’<br/>‘  i’m okay.  i’m alright.  this is all in my mind.  ’<br/>‘  i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me.  ’<br/>‘  i’m so cold  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i can’t stop shaking.  i am not who you think i am.  ’<br/>‘  i’m so tired all the time  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i just want to be awake again.  ’<br/>‘  i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten.  i just want someone to remember me.  ’<br/>‘  i’m tired of fighting everything in my life.  just make it stop.  ’<br/>‘  i’m too tired to care.  blow up,  get angry at me.  i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it.  ’<br/>‘  jealousy burns within me.  ’<br/>‘  just let me go in peace for once in my damn life.  ’<br/>‘  loneliness is a disease  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  it leaves me empty  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  hollow,  like sound goes through my body  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  bounces back.  ’<br/>‘  made of starlight  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  sunshine,  i shine brighter than they all know.  ’<br/>‘  my anger is righteous  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my actions are pure.  ’<br/>‘  my chest aches  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my lungs burn.  this sickness comes from the inside.  ’<br/>‘  my chest hurts  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  all i need is some comfort  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  understanding.  ’<br/>‘  my chest hurts  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i ache to go back to the sky.  ’<br/>‘  my shoulders are aching where wings used to be  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  all i want is for them to stop hurting.  ’<br/>‘  pull me apart  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  piece me together in your own way.  make me perfect.  ’<br/>‘  righteous fury throws through my veins  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  if you touch the people i love i will destroy you.  ’<br/>‘  rise up.  you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more.  ’<br/>‘  say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue.  ’<br/>‘  so much blood has been spilled in my name.  time to make you believe it was in yours.  ’<br/>‘  so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent,  but not when i scream  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  plead for help<b><i>?</i></b>  fuck off.  ’<br/>‘  sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want.  ’<br/>‘  stay away from my fucking friends.  stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you.  ’<br/>‘  stop treating me like i’m an idiot.  you aren’t better than me in any way  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  you better remember that.  ’<br/>‘  the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue.  ’<br/>‘  the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it.  ’<br/>‘  to love them is my divine right.  ’<br/>‘  voices whisper from the shadows  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  they fill my mind with thoughts of you.  ’<br/>‘  what did i to wrong to be so unloved<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  who the fuck do you think you are<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  why can’t i ever fucking stop crying<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  with a new year comes new tests  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  triumphs.  let’s try to make the most out of it.  ’<br/>‘  would it really kill you to be honest for once<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  yes,  i remember my wings breaking  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  being destroyed.  i was powerless to stop it.  ’<br/>‘  you are not required to love your parents,  or to even like them.  ’<br/>‘  you can’t hate me more than i hate myself,  but you are more than welcome to try.  ’<br/>‘  you may say you love me,  but you love only a part of me.  i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being.  ’<br/>‘  you never fucking cared about me.  don’t fucking lie about it.  not to me.  ’<br/>‘  you remind me of mint.  fresh,  sharp,  kind of cold,  but in a nice way.  i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite.  ’<br/>‘  you shine light in even the darkest parts of me.  you are my sun.  ’<br/>‘  you should fear me,  but you don’t.  i will be eternally puzzled,  yet grateful.  ’<br/>‘  you touch me  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my skin burns  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  it burns for you,  always you.  ’</small></p> </blockquote>
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Being Alone, Bones, and Complex: Ask Meme growling suggestion edition <p><a href="http://spctlessminds.tumblr.com/post/155987241443/based-on-this-suggestions-blog-warning-these" class="tumblr_blog">spctlessminds</a>:</p><blockquote> <blockquote><p><small>based on <a href="http://growling-suggestion.tumblr.com/">this</a> suggestions blog.  <b>warning: </b> these are pretty dark/angry  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  could be triggering to some people.  please be cautious before proceeding<b><i>!!</i></b></small></p></blockquote> <p><small>‘  all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  me to not flinch away without meaning to.  when will this stop affecting me<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  all i want is to be soft  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  gentle,  but i’m made out of steel  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  anger.  maybe in another life,  i guess.  ’<br/>‘  beauty is in the eye of the beholder,  so choose to see beauty in everything.  ’<br/>‘  burning it all to the ground  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  force them to start again.  they made you lose everything.  now return the favor.  ’<br/>‘  do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  do you trust me enough<b><i>?</i></b>  do you trust me at all<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  don’t you dare abandon me.  ’<br/>‘  even after all you have done,  i will always want you fighting on my side.  ’<br/>‘  every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again.  ’<br/>‘  everyone i have ever loved is long gone.  i sing to the sky alone.  ’<br/>‘  everyone i touch gets hurt,  but i can’t stop.  i touch  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i touch  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i touch  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  people get hurt.  why can’t i ever stop<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  everyone says i used to be a hero,  but i can still taste the blood in my mouth  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  still feel bruises blooming because of my fists  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my eyes are still stretched wide  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  terrified.  ’<br/>‘  everything i love has been taken from me.  what do i have left to fight for<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong.  ’<br/>‘  friends are more important than any material object will ever be.  ’<br/>‘  i am aching to hold you  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  keep you safe,  to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you.  ’<br/>‘  i am divine  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  you will bow before me.  ’<br/>‘  i am fucking divine.  ’<br/>‘  i am in control  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i listen to no one.  ’<br/>‘  i am not a good person.  don’t pretend i am.  ’<br/>‘  i am not accustomed to love.  this is a learning experience.  ’<br/>‘  i am not worth saving  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i am not worth redemption.  let me stay in the dark.  ’<br/>‘  i am so tired all the time,  all i want to do is rest.  ’<br/>‘  i am too tired to deal with any of this.  ’<br/>‘  i bow to no man.  ’<br/>‘  i broke into sharp pieces when i broke  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together.  i’m sorry.  ’<br/>‘  i can give you your wings back  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i can show you to fly once more,  if you only believe in me.  ’<br/>‘  i cannot be saved.  ’<br/>‘  i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people.  i can bear this weight on my own.  i have to.  ’<br/>‘  i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you,  but i loved you too much to notice.  ’<br/>‘  i crave affection in the simplest way.  ’<br/>‘  i deserve to hurt.  i deserve to bleed.  ’<br/>‘  i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer,  as long as it leaves your lips.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t fight for you anymore.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t want to let go of you.  not now,  not ever.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t want to talk about it.  i don’t want to remember.  i don’t want to heal.  all i want is for it to go away.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t want you to touch me.  please don’t touch me,  just go away.  ’<br/>‘  i feel anger deeper than my bones.  i feel anger in my very soul.  ’<br/>‘  i feel nothing at all,  except for when i feel everything all at once.  ’<br/>‘  i have fallen  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  though i may miss the sky,  i belong here now.  ’<br/>‘  i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine.  ’<br/>‘  i have no home anymore.  ’<br/>‘  i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  then i remember nothing.  ’<br/>‘  i see beauty in everything,  but especially in you.  ’<br/>‘  i should never have fallen in love with you.  ’<br/>‘  i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me.  now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away.  ’<br/>‘  i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe.  ’<br/>‘  i will never amount to anything.  i am a failure in the worst type of way.  ’<br/>‘  i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  maybe someday it will be true.  ’<br/>‘  if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore.  ’<br/>‘  if you ask me to,  i will set the whole world on fire,  my dear.  it’s all for you.  ’<br/>‘  is it my fault<b><i>?</i></b>  it’s my fault.  it’s always my fault.  ’<br/>‘  it’s not murder if they deserved it,  right<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me,  choking on anger  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  suffocating on sadness.  ’<br/>‘  i’m in love with everything that hurts me.  ’<br/>‘  i’m okay.  i’m alright.  this is all in my mind.  ’<br/>‘  i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me.  ’<br/>‘  i’m so cold  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i can’t stop shaking.  i am not who you think i am.  ’<br/>‘  i’m so tired all the time  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i just want to be awake again.  ’<br/>‘  i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten.  i just want someone to remember me.  ’<br/>‘  i’m tired of fighting everything in my life.  just make it stop.  ’<br/>‘  i’m too tired to care.  blow up,  get angry at me.  i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it.  ’<br/>‘  jealousy burns within me.  ’<br/>‘  just let me go in peace for once in my damn life.  ’<br/>‘  loneliness is a disease  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  it leaves me empty  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  hollow,  like sound goes through my body  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  bounces back.  ’<br/>‘  made of starlight  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  sunshine,  i shine brighter than they all know.  ’<br/>‘  my anger is righteous  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my actions are pure.  ’<br/>‘  my chest aches  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my lungs burn.  this sickness comes from the inside.  ’<br/>‘  my chest hurts  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  all i need is some comfort  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  understanding.  ’<br/>‘  my chest hurts  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i ache to go back to the sky.  ’<br/>‘  my shoulders are aching where wings used to be  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  all i want is for them to stop hurting.  ’<br/>‘  pull me apart  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  piece me together in your own way.  make me perfect.  ’<br/>‘  righteous fury throws through my veins  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  if you touch the people i love i will destroy you.  ’<br/>‘  rise up.  you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more.  ’<br/>‘  say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue.  ’<br/>‘  so much blood has been spilled in my name.  time to make you believe it was in yours.  ’<br/>‘  so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent,  but not when i scream  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  plead for help<b><i>?</i></b>  fuck off.  ’<br/>‘  sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want.  ’<br/>‘  stay away from my fucking friends.  stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you.  ’<br/>‘  stop treating me like i’m an idiot.  you aren’t better than me in any way  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  you better remember that.  ’<br/>‘  the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue.  ’<br/>‘  the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it.  ’<br/>‘  to love them is my divine right.  ’<br/>‘  voices whisper from the shadows  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  they fill my mind with thoughts of you.  ’<br/>‘  what did i to wrong to be so unloved<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  who the fuck do you think you are<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  why can’t i ever fucking stop crying<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  with a new year comes new tests  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  triumphs.  let’s try to make the most out of it.  ’<br/>‘  would it really kill you to be honest for once<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  yes,  i remember my wings breaking  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  being destroyed.  i was powerless to stop it.  ’<br/>‘  you are not required to love your parents,  or to even like them.  ’<br/>‘  you can’t hate me more than i hate myself,  but you are more than welcome to try.  ’<br/>‘  you may say you love me,  but you love only a part of me.  i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being.  ’<br/>‘  you never fucking cared about me.  don’t fucking lie about it.  not to me.  ’<br/>‘  you remind me of mint.  fresh,  sharp,  kind of cold,  but in a nice way.  i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite.  ’<br/>‘  you shine light in even the darkest parts of me.  you are my sun.  ’<br/>‘  you should fear me,  but you don’t.  i will be eternally puzzled,  yet grateful.  ’<br/>‘  you touch me  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my skin burns  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  it burns for you,  always you.  ’</small></p> </blockquote>
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Being Alone, Bones, and Complex: Ask Meme growling suggestion edition <p><a href="http://spctlessminds.tumblr.com/post/155987241443/based-on-this-suggestions-blog-warning-these" class="tumblr_blog">spctlessminds</a>:</p><blockquote> <blockquote><p><small>based on <a href="http://growling-suggestion.tumblr.com/">this</a> suggestions blog.  <b>warning: </b> these are pretty dark/angry  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  could be triggering to some people.  please be cautious before proceeding<b><i>!!</i></b></small></p></blockquote> <p><small>‘  all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  me to not flinch away without meaning to.  when will this stop affecting me<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  all i want is to be soft  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  gentle,  but i’m made out of steel  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  anger.  maybe in another life,  i guess.  ’<br/>‘  beauty is in the eye of the beholder,  so choose to see beauty in everything.  ’<br/>‘  burning it all to the ground  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  force them to start again.  they made you lose everything.  now return the favor.  ’<br/>‘  do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  do you trust me enough<b><i>?</i></b>  do you trust me at all<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  don’t you dare abandon me.  ’<br/>‘  even after all you have done,  i will always want you fighting on my side.  ’<br/>‘  every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again.  ’<br/>‘  everyone i have ever loved is long gone.  i sing to the sky alone.  ’<br/>‘  everyone i touch gets hurt,  but i can’t stop.  i touch  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i touch  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i touch  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  people get hurt.  why can’t i ever stop<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  everyone says i used to be a hero,  but i can still taste the blood in my mouth  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  still feel bruises blooming because of my fists  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my eyes are still stretched wide  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  terrified.  ’<br/>‘  everything i love has been taken from me.  what do i have left to fight for<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong.  ’<br/>‘  friends are more important than any material object will ever be.  ’<br/>‘  i am aching to hold you  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  keep you safe,  to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you.  ’<br/>‘  i am divine  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  you will bow before me.  ’<br/>‘  i am fucking divine.  ’<br/>‘  i am in control  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i listen to no one.  ’<br/>‘  i am not a good person.  don’t pretend i am.  ’<br/>‘  i am not accustomed to love.  this is a learning experience.  ’<br/>‘  i am not worth saving  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i am not worth redemption.  let me stay in the dark.  ’<br/>‘  i am so tired all the time,  all i want to do is rest.  ’<br/>‘  i am too tired to deal with any of this.  ’<br/>‘  i bow to no man.  ’<br/>‘  i broke into sharp pieces when i broke  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together.  i’m sorry.  ’<br/>‘  i can give you your wings back  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i can show you to fly once more,  if you only believe in me.  ’<br/>‘  i cannot be saved.  ’<br/>‘  i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people.  i can bear this weight on my own.  i have to.  ’<br/>‘  i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you,  but i loved you too much to notice.  ’<br/>‘  i crave affection in the simplest way.  ’<br/>‘  i deserve to hurt.  i deserve to bleed.  ’<br/>‘  i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer,  as long as it leaves your lips.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t fight for you anymore.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t want to let go of you.  not now,  not ever.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t want to talk about it.  i don’t want to remember.  i don’t want to heal.  all i want is for it to go away.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t want you to touch me.  please don’t touch me,  just go away.  ’<br/>‘  i feel anger deeper than my bones.  i feel anger in my very soul.  ’<br/>‘  i feel nothing at all,  except for when i feel everything all at once.  ’<br/>‘  i have fallen  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  though i may miss the sky,  i belong here now.  ’<br/>‘  i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine.  ’<br/>‘  i have no home anymore.  ’<br/>‘  i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  then i remember nothing.  ’<br/>‘  i see beauty in everything,  but especially in you.  ’<br/>‘  i should never have fallen in love with you.  ’<br/>‘  i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me.  now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away.  ’<br/>‘  i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe.  ’<br/>‘  i will never amount to anything.  i am a failure in the worst type of way.  ’<br/>‘  i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  maybe someday it will be true.  ’<br/>‘  if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore.  ’<br/>‘  if you ask me to,  i will set the whole world on fire,  my dear.  it’s all for you.  ’<br/>‘  is it my fault<b><i>?</i></b>  it’s my fault.  it’s always my fault.  ’<br/>‘  it’s not murder if they deserved it,  right<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me,  choking on anger  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  suffocating on sadness.  ’<br/>‘  i’m in love with everything that hurts me.  ’<br/>‘  i’m okay.  i’m alright.  this is all in my mind.  ’<br/>‘  i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me.  ’<br/>‘  i’m so cold  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i can’t stop shaking.  i am not who you think i am.  ’<br/>‘  i’m so tired all the time  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i just want to be awake again.  ’<br/>‘  i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten.  i just want someone to remember me.  ’<br/>‘  i’m tired of fighting everything in my life.  just make it stop.  ’<br/>‘  i’m too tired to care.  blow up,  get angry at me.  i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it.  ’<br/>‘  jealousy burns within me.  ’<br/>‘  just let me go in peace for once in my damn life.  ’<br/>‘  loneliness is a disease  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  it leaves me empty  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  hollow,  like sound goes through my body  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  bounces back.  ’<br/>‘  made of starlight  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  sunshine,  i shine brighter than they all know.  ’<br/>‘  my anger is righteous  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my actions are pure.  ’<br/>‘  my chest aches  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my lungs burn.  this sickness comes from the inside.  ’<br/>‘  my chest hurts  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  all i need is some comfort  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  understanding.  ’<br/>‘  my chest hurts  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i ache to go back to the sky.  ’<br/>‘  my shoulders are aching where wings used to be  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  all i want is for them to stop hurting.  ’<br/>‘  pull me apart  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  piece me together in your own way.  make me perfect.  ’<br/>‘  righteous fury throws through my veins  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  if you touch the people i love i will destroy you.  ’<br/>‘  rise up.  you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more.  ’<br/>‘  say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue.  ’<br/>‘  so much blood has been spilled in my name.  time to make you believe it was in yours.  ’<br/>‘  so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent,  but not when i scream  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  plead for help<b><i>?</i></b>  fuck off.  ’<br/>‘  sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want.  ’<br/>‘  stay away from my fucking friends.  stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you.  ’<br/>‘  stop treating me like i’m an idiot.  you aren’t better than me in any way  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  you better remember that.  ’<br/>‘  the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue.  ’<br/>‘  the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it.  ’<br/>‘  to love them is my divine right.  ’<br/>‘  voices whisper from the shadows  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  they fill my mind with thoughts of you.  ’<br/>‘  what did i to wrong to be so unloved<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  who the fuck do you think you are<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  why can’t i ever fucking stop crying<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  with a new year comes new tests  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  triumphs.  let’s try to make the most out of it.  ’<br/>‘  would it really kill you to be honest for once<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  yes,  i remember my wings breaking  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  being destroyed.  i was powerless to stop it.  ’<br/>‘  you are not required to love your parents,  or to even like them.  ’<br/>‘  you can’t hate me more than i hate myself,  but you are more than welcome to try.  ’<br/>‘  you may say you love me,  but you love only a part of me.  i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being.  ’<br/>‘  you never fucking cared about me.  don’t fucking lie about it.  not to me.  ’<br/>‘  you remind me of mint.  fresh,  sharp,  kind of cold,  but in a nice way.  i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite.  ’<br/>‘  you shine light in even the darkest parts of me.  you are my sun.  ’<br/>‘  you should fear me,  but you don’t.  i will be eternally puzzled,  yet grateful.  ’<br/>‘  you touch me  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my skin burns  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  it burns for you,  always you.  ’</small></p> </blockquote>
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Being Alone, Bones, and Complex: Ask Meme growling suggestion edition <p><a href="http://spctlessminds.tumblr.com/post/155987241443/based-on-this-suggestions-blog-warning-these" class="tumblr_blog">spctlessminds</a>:</p> <blockquote> <blockquote><p><small>based on <a href="http://growling-suggestion.tumblr.com/">this</a> suggestions blog.  <b>warning: </b> these are pretty dark/angry  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  could be triggering to some people.  please be cautious before proceeding<b><i>!!</i></b></small></p></blockquote> <p><small>‘  all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  me to not flinch away without meaning to.  when will this stop affecting me<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  all i want is to be soft  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  gentle,  but i’m made out of steel  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  anger.  maybe in another life,  i guess.  ’<br/>‘  beauty is in the eye of the beholder,  so choose to see beauty in everything.  ’<br/>‘  burning it all to the ground  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  force them to start again.  they made you lose everything.  now return the favor.  ’<br/>‘  do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  do you trust me enough<b><i>?</i></b>  do you trust me at all<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  don’t you dare abandon me.  ’<br/>‘  even after all you have done,  i will always want you fighting on my side.  ’<br/>‘  every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again.  ’<br/>‘  everyone i have ever loved is long gone.  i sing to the sky alone.  ’<br/>‘  everyone i touch gets hurt,  but i can’t stop.  i touch  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i touch  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i touch  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  people get hurt.  why can’t i ever stop<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  everyone says i used to be a hero,  but i can still taste the blood in my mouth  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  still feel bruises blooming because of my fists  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my eyes are still stretched wide  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  terrified.  ’<br/>‘  everything i love has been taken from me.  what do i have left to fight for<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong.  ’<br/>‘  friends are more important than any material object will ever be.  ’<br/>‘  i am aching to hold you  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  keep you safe,  to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you.  ’<br/>‘  i am divine  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  you will bow before me.  ’<br/>‘  i am fucking divine.  ’<br/>‘  i am in control  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i listen to no one.  ’<br/>‘  i am not a good person.  don’t pretend i am.  ’<br/>‘  i am not accustomed to love.  this is a learning experience.  ’<br/>‘  i am not worth saving  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i am not worth redemption.  let me stay in the dark.  ’<br/>‘  i am so tired all the time,  all i want to do is rest.  ’<br/>‘  i am too tired to deal with any of this.  ’<br/>‘  i bow to no man.  ’<br/>‘  i broke into sharp pieces when i broke  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together.  i’m sorry.  ’<br/>‘  i can give you your wings back  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i can show you to fly once more,  if you only believe in me.  ’<br/>‘  i cannot be saved.  ’<br/>‘  i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people.  i can bear this weight on my own.  i have to.  ’<br/>‘  i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you,  but i loved you too much to notice.  ’<br/>‘  i crave affection in the simplest way.  ’<br/>‘  i deserve to hurt.  i deserve to bleed.  ’<br/>‘  i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer,  as long as it leaves your lips.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t fight for you anymore.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t want to let go of you.  not now,  not ever.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t want to talk about it.  i don’t want to remember.  i don’t want to heal.  all i want is for it to go away.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t want you to touch me.  please don’t touch me,  just go away.  ’<br/>‘  i feel anger deeper than my bones.  i feel anger in my very soul.  ’<br/>‘  i feel nothing at all,  except for when i feel everything all at once.  ’<br/>‘  i have fallen  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  though i may miss the sky,  i belong here now.  ’<br/>‘  i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine.  ’<br/>‘  i have no home anymore.  ’<br/>‘  i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  then i remember nothing.  ’<br/>‘  i see beauty in everything,  but especially in you.  ’<br/>‘  i should never have fallen in love with you.  ’<br/>‘  i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me.  now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away.  ’<br/>‘  i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe.  ’<br/>‘  i will never amount to anything.  i am a failure in the worst type of way.  ’<br/>‘  i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  maybe someday it will be true.  ’<br/>‘  if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore.  ’<br/>‘  if you ask me to,  i will set the whole world on fire,  my dear.  it’s all for you.  ’<br/>‘  is it my fault<b><i>?</i></b>  it’s my fault.  it’s always my fault.  ’<br/>‘  it’s not murder if they deserved it,  right<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me,  choking on anger  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  suffocating on sadness.  ’<br/>‘  i’m in love with everything that hurts me.  ’<br/>‘  i’m okay.  i’m alright.  this is all in my mind.  ’<br/>‘  i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me.  ’<br/>‘  i’m so cold  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i can’t stop shaking.  i am not who you think i am.  ’<br/>‘  i’m so tired all the time  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i just want to be awake again.  ’<br/>‘  i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten.  i just want someone to remember me.  ’<br/>‘  i’m tired of fighting everything in my life.  just make it stop.  ’<br/>‘  i’m too tired to care.  blow up,  get angry at me.  i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it.  ’<br/>‘  jealousy burns within me.  ’<br/>‘  just let me go in peace for once in my damn life.  ’<br/>‘  loneliness is a disease  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  it leaves me empty  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  hollow,  like sound goes through my body  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  bounces back.  ’<br/>‘  made of starlight  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  sunshine,  i shine brighter than they all know.  ’<br/>‘  my anger is righteous  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my actions are pure.  ’<br/>‘  my chest aches  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my lungs burn.  this sickness comes from the inside.  ’<br/>‘  my chest hurts  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  all i need is some comfort  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  understanding.  ’<br/>‘  my chest hurts  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i ache to go back to the sky.  ’<br/>‘  my shoulders are aching where wings used to be  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  all i want is for them to stop hurting.  ’<br/>‘  pull me apart  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  piece me together in your own way.  make me perfect.  ’<br/>‘  righteous fury throws through my veins  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  if you touch the people i love i will destroy you.  ’<br/>‘  rise up.  you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more.  ’<br/>‘  say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue.  ’<br/>‘  so much blood has been spilled in my name.  time to make you believe it was in yours.  ’<br/>‘  so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent,  but not when i scream  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  plead for help<b><i>?</i></b>  fuck off.  ’<br/>‘  sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want.  ’<br/>‘  stay away from my fucking friends.  stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you.  ’<br/>‘  stop treating me like i’m an idiot.  you aren’t better than me in any way  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  you better remember that.  ’<br/>‘  the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue.  ’<br/>‘  the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it.  ’<br/>‘  to love them is my divine right.  ’<br/>‘  voices whisper from the shadows  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  they fill my mind with thoughts of you.  ’<br/>‘  what did i to wrong to be so unloved<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  who the fuck do you think you are<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  why can’t i ever fucking stop crying<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  with a new year comes new tests  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  triumphs.  let’s try to make the most out of it.  ’<br/>‘  would it really kill you to be honest for once<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  yes,  i remember my wings breaking  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  being destroyed.  i was powerless to stop it.  ’<br/>‘  you are not required to love your parents,  or to even like them.  ’<br/>‘  you can’t hate me more than i hate myself,  but you are more than welcome to try.  ’<br/>‘  you may say you love me,  but you love only a part of me.  i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being.  ’<br/>‘  you never fucking cared about me.  don’t fucking lie about it.  not to me.  ’<br/>‘  you remind me of mint.  fresh,  sharp,  kind of cold,  but in a nice way.  i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite.  ’<br/>‘  you shine light in even the darkest parts of me.  you are my sun.  ’<br/>‘  you should fear me,  but you don’t.  i will be eternally puzzled,  yet grateful.  ’<br/>‘  you touch me  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my skin burns  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  it burns for you,  always you.  ’</small></p> </blockquote>
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Being Alone, Bones, and Complex: Ask Meme growling suggestion edition <p><a href="http://spctlessminds.tumblr.com/post/155987241443/based-on-this-suggestions-blog-warning-these" class="tumblr_blog">spctlessminds</a>:</p><blockquote> <blockquote><p><small>based on <a href="http://growling-suggestion.tumblr.com/">this</a> suggestions blog.  <b>warning: </b> these are pretty dark/angry  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  could be triggering to some people.  please be cautious before proceeding<b><i>!!</i></b></small></p></blockquote> <p><small>‘  all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  me to not flinch away without meaning to.  when will this stop affecting me<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  all i want is to be soft  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  gentle,  but i’m made out of steel  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  anger.  maybe in another life,  i guess.  ’<br/>‘  beauty is in the eye of the beholder,  so choose to see beauty in everything.  ’<br/>‘  burning it all to the ground  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  force them to start again.  they made you lose everything.  now return the favor.  ’<br/>‘  do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  do you trust me enough<b><i>?</i></b>  do you trust me at all<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  don’t you dare abandon me.  ’<br/>‘  even after all you have done,  i will always want you fighting on my side.  ’<br/>‘  every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again.  ’<br/>‘  everyone i have ever loved is long gone.  i sing to the sky alone.  ’<br/>‘  everyone i touch gets hurt,  but i can’t stop.  i touch  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i touch  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i touch  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  people get hurt.  why can’t i ever stop<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  everyone says i used to be a hero,  but i can still taste the blood in my mouth  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  still feel bruises blooming because of my fists  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my eyes are still stretched wide  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  terrified.  ’<br/>‘  everything i love has been taken from me.  what do i have left to fight for<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong.  ’<br/>‘  friends are more important than any material object will ever be.  ’<br/>‘  i am aching to hold you  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  keep you safe,  to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you.  ’<br/>‘  i am divine  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  you will bow before me.  ’<br/>‘  i am fucking divine.  ’<br/>‘  i am in control  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i listen to no one.  ’<br/>‘  i am not a good person.  don’t pretend i am.  ’<br/>‘  i am not accustomed to love.  this is a learning experience.  ’<br/>‘  i am not worth saving  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i am not worth redemption.  let me stay in the dark.  ’<br/>‘  i am so tired all the time,  all i want to do is rest.  ’<br/>‘  i am too tired to deal with any of this.  ’<br/>‘  i bow to no man.  ’<br/>‘  i broke into sharp pieces when i broke  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together.  i’m sorry.  ’<br/>‘  i can give you your wings back  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i can show you to fly once more,  if you only believe in me.  ’<br/>‘  i cannot be saved.  ’<br/>‘  i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people.  i can bear this weight on my own.  i have to.  ’<br/>‘  i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you,  but i loved you too much to notice.  ’<br/>‘  i crave affection in the simplest way.  ’<br/>‘  i deserve to hurt.  i deserve to bleed.  ’<br/>‘  i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer,  as long as it leaves your lips.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t fight for you anymore.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t want to let go of you.  not now,  not ever.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t want to talk about it.  i don’t want to remember.  i don’t want to heal.  all i want is for it to go away.  ’<br/>‘  i don’t want you to touch me.  please don’t touch me,  just go away.  ’<br/>‘  i feel anger deeper than my bones.  i feel anger in my very soul.  ’<br/>‘  i feel nothing at all,  except for when i feel everything all at once.  ’<br/>‘  i have fallen  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  though i may miss the sky,  i belong here now.  ’<br/>‘  i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine.  ’<br/>‘  i have no home anymore.  ’<br/>‘  i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  then i remember nothing.  ’<br/>‘  i see beauty in everything,  but especially in you.  ’<br/>‘  i should never have fallen in love with you.  ’<br/>‘  i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me.  now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away.  ’<br/>‘  i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe.  ’<br/>‘  i will never amount to anything.  i am a failure in the worst type of way.  ’<br/>‘  i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  maybe someday it will be true.  ’<br/>‘  if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore.  ’<br/>‘  if you ask me to,  i will set the whole world on fire,  my dear.  it’s all for you.  ’<br/>‘  is it my fault<b><i>?</i></b>  it’s my fault.  it’s always my fault.  ’<br/>‘  it’s not murder if they deserved it,  right<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me,  choking on anger  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  suffocating on sadness.  ’<br/>‘  i’m in love with everything that hurts me.  ’<br/>‘  i’m okay.  i’m alright.  this is all in my mind.  ’<br/>‘  i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me.  ’<br/>‘  i’m so cold  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i can’t stop shaking.  i am not who you think i am.  ’<br/>‘  i’m so tired all the time  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i just want to be awake again.  ’<br/>‘  i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten.  i just want someone to remember me.  ’<br/>‘  i’m tired of fighting everything in my life.  just make it stop.  ’<br/>‘  i’m too tired to care.  blow up,  get angry at me.  i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it.  ’<br/>‘  jealousy burns within me.  ’<br/>‘  just let me go in peace for once in my damn life.  ’<br/>‘  loneliness is a disease  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  it leaves me empty  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  hollow,  like sound goes through my body  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  bounces back.  ’<br/>‘  made of starlight  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  sunshine,  i shine brighter than they all know.  ’<br/>‘  my anger is righteous  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my actions are pure.  ’<br/>‘  my chest aches  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my lungs burn.  this sickness comes from the inside.  ’<br/>‘  my chest hurts  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  all i need is some comfort  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  understanding.  ’<br/>‘  my chest hurts  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  i ache to go back to the sky.  ’<br/>‘  my shoulders are aching where wings used to be  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  all i want is for them to stop hurting.  ’<br/>‘  pull me apart  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  piece me together in your own way.  make me perfect.  ’<br/>‘  righteous fury throws through my veins  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  if you touch the people i love i will destroy you.  ’<br/>‘  rise up.  you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more.  ’<br/>‘  say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue.  ’<br/>‘  so much blood has been spilled in my name.  time to make you believe it was in yours.  ’<br/>‘  so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent,  but not when i scream  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  plead for help<b><i>?</i></b>  fuck off.  ’<br/>‘  sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want.  ’<br/>‘  stay away from my fucking friends.  stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you.  ’<br/>‘  stop treating me like i’m an idiot.  you aren’t better than me in any way  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  you better remember that.  ’<br/>‘  the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue.  ’<br/>‘  the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it.  ’<br/>‘  to love them is my divine right.  ’<br/>‘  voices whisper from the shadows  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  they fill my mind with thoughts of you.  ’<br/>‘  what did i to wrong to be so unloved<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  who the fuck do you think you are<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  why can’t i ever fucking stop crying<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  with a new year comes new tests  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  triumphs.  let’s try to make the most out of it.  ’<br/>‘  would it really kill you to be honest for once<b><i>?</i></b>  ’<br/>‘  yes,  i remember my wings breaking  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  being destroyed.  i was powerless to stop it.  ’<br/>‘  you are not required to love your parents,  or to even like them.  ’<br/>‘  you can’t hate me more than i hate myself,  but you are more than welcome to try.  ’<br/>‘  you may say you love me,  but you love only a part of me.  i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being.  ’<br/>‘  you never fucking cared about me.  don’t fucking lie about it.  not to me.  ’<br/>‘  you remind me of mint.  fresh,  sharp,  kind of cold,  but in a nice way.  i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite.  ’<br/>‘  you shine light in even the darkest parts of me.  you are my sun.  ’<br/>‘  you should fear me,  but you don’t.  i will be eternally puzzled,  yet grateful.  ’<br/>‘  you touch me  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  my skin burns  <b><i>&amp;</i></b>  it burns for you,  always you.  ’</small></p> </blockquote>
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